I was lost broken and wanting to just feel better. When I was introduced to the possibility of getting an inexpensive drug supplied to me everyday at a really cheap price $5.50 per drink or rather per dosage I thought that would be great. No more chasing around trying to get my fix or my next feel good, heck, this would solve my life problems, I could start going to work everyday not worrying about having to leave to pick-up or whether or not my perscription (oxys) would last or not- they never lasted more than a day or two.
That was all too good to be true, because I fell for it>>>> and hard. That was 2 and a half years ago and today my life is as solid as mashed potatoes. I am a slave to methadone now for sure. Well I guess it is ALL my fault, I should have never started using drugs anyways. That is not quite where I want to go with this Blog, I am more interested of whether or not I am Alone in believing that I am a victim of sorts and or should have been a little more informed about the seriousness of Methadone or 'done' as the street calls it.
I want to try and propose something as it pertains to Methadone and the administering of it. I believe that, now that I am an experienced Methadone user I am more than qualified to speak on it's effects and hazards.
1st- what is the qualifications to become a Meth patient?
2nd- What are the qualifications of the Meth Doctor?are there any?
3rd- What are the statistics(since inception of Methadone)on successful recovery?
4th- Is there anything after methadone?
I am at a crossroads as to what to do with my life now, I have zero energy, no sex drive, my whole life and thinking is centered around getting my next drink.
Not a lot of different from before Meth. I Hate it.
Except that I have found out that the Pain of Withdrawl is far worse than any other Opiate I ever have had the displeasure of getting clean from.
Will this ever end?
I am now taking 130mls of methadone mix or 26 something that you x by 5 to get 130, anyways I have zero drive for life and nobody told me any of this to be prepared for my days as a methadone addict. Again I hate it I AM A TOTAL SLAVE- very embarrased and humbled at my state of affairs.
I think that this whole methadone thing is ALL about, what else- MONEY- what else could spawn so many new meth clinics popping up all over? Well I had though that I had come across a caring set of docs that had my best interests at heart. Oh for the gullable people as myself.
If you are a person to whom this type of life has become you as well then please talk to me.
I still am asked to get down to the clinic 2 times a week and to the pharmacy 5-7 days, depending ,I think, on my Dr.'s feelings or something, I don't know much but I do know that to run one of these clinics it is more profitable for them to just give you the drug, collect their money and send you on your way. I Hate this life.
But lo and behold, I am a surviver and I will survive in spite of the hoops that I am forced to jump through. I will just lead a life that is heartless and cold until then (I can't be heartless).
I say "down with methadone" as a means to just cover up your addiction and no to just being able to walk in and score some dope.
5 comments:
Methadone has been a real help to me and at the same time it has also helped make me even deeper addicted to itself. It would appear now that I am more hooked on this stuff than on any other substance ever. I have found also that we Methadone users have really become money makers for our doctors. That being said, I would hope that some of their earnings, that are obtained off the backs of those of us that are truelly sick with the disease of addiction, would have to be allocated back into helping those that are in need. This can be done by helping to sponsor self help groups that would encourage those users of methadone to come out and talk about the whys, whats and howcomes of their diseases. Now with such helps, I think many more addicts would become healed, therfore maybe they would not need the Meth. anymore and the doctors must know that,that being a good motivator for the doctors NOT TO HELP. That is what I hate- The motivation of making Money Over that of Helping a Sick person.
Bill
Trying to figure out if any person has actually stopped Methadone cold turkey and if so what happened?
I must get clean from this crap, it has my life.
So if you can help or have any testimonies that would be good.
Get back to me whenyou can.
I hate, Love Methadone.
I must be sick.
Not for much longer.
This time next year I should have some good clean time under my belt.
insane
Well well well if I didn't know any better I would think that I was alone yet I am not and not so unique in my state of mind nor in my walk in life.
I have just heard a word- what is the benifit of going somewhere and leaving feeling better, yet not changing anything.Where is the benifit, the lasting effect. No,no,no, that is what the drugs had acomplished for me period. I felt better, for a short time- then I would have to Face Reality once they wore off. Hence/the cycle of addiction.
If I am to be a changed man I must not just put down my drugs, but put off my own ways of the insanity of doing the same THINGS and expecting differant results.
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