Hey, do we really have a choice?, like are we born like this?

Don't think so. I believe we(I) worked hard at hiding and finding new and more creative ways to feel good.

Now I just have to pay a set price each day- How Sick- I know.

Life is not that terrible really, I am 75% happy- this Methadone really gets in the way of the personal married life, as far as intimacy goes.
I have been told many things about this stuff and nobody ever told me how much of a hold it would end up with on me. - I hate it.

I am babbling now- it's late, good night and God Bless.

P.S. I need to get to a Methadone meeting or somewhere to really get open and honest and just better- cause I am getting well(better,healthier).